Well im sorta girl that always had a plan for the future. I always aspired i would get more outta life.. Since i was younger i always told myself that one day i would leave and make agreat future for myself and things would get better.
I always had an issue with my parent's telling me stuff and not keeping their word. I also have a horrid memory i can't semm to remember much from when i was younger.
I guess i was living in a fantasy world before where i can just get away and start again. Go to college get married raise kids..

I always kept evreything inside and then i found differant outlets first it was writing then running then talking to friends abt things.. Now it's u guys so thankx😄
Once i couldn't hold it in anymore and confronted my parents about tye trust issue and ibwas ridiculed what a poor child i am and ppl have bigger probloms. Which i guess they r right. I read about peoples problems which r a million tumes worse then mine! I don't know y im so unhappy.
Well now i came to the stage where i have to decide what to do with my life and I'm just stuck.
It just so not like me since i always have a plan. My parents want me to so the seminary.. Religous college n all that.
I Don't..
If i don't follow my parents plan they wld cut me off n i always thought i wld b fine with that and now i realized im rly not.
I don't know what to do with my future and as much as i wld love to get married and all.. Im scared to trust someone and enter a relationship. What if i get hurt? I don't know if I'd b a ble to take it again??
I know im rambling it's just that i don't know how to move foward...