Posted 16 November 2011 - 02:23 AM
Plz plz reply mabe can u email me a reply I won't post my email tho cuz I'm not supposed to ... But plz plz I need help and frumteens has ALWAYS been there for me
Posted 07 December 2011 - 06:56 PM
2- It may seem like a good thing but basically I don't have a Ed rly cuz my friend and I were talking to a life coach person and he said that because I got my Ed thru wanting it by going on pro Ana sites it means I dont really have a problem so I got depressed and started eating and now I'm overweight Nd in a anoying state cuz I have a problem cuz I can't stop eating now but I don't hav a problem cuz it all started not unintentionally well idk I shud b weighing 150 and basically I'm 168 now ....I mean I don't think I am fat but at the same time I HATE HOW I LOOK
3- i changed a lot ...I DELETED ALL THE GUYS FROM MY FACEBOOK AND I TOLD THEM THAT I CANT TALK TO THEM ANYMORE ...it was verry hard but well worth it
4- I went to somthing called a bais Chana retreat it was an amazing inspiring experience with rabbis Nd I made new friends
K idk wat else is going on just a lotta stuf I'll check up on this later ttyl ppl
Posted 09 December 2011 - 12:26 PM
1. Your body probably has to replenish itself after having been restricted from nutrients for the time you weren't eating right. If you are really concerned about your weight, you can go to a nutritionist who can help you balance the way you want to look and the nutrients you need.
2. I am so, so happy for you that you had the strength to delete the guys from your facebook account. I saw that beauty inside of you, and I hope you now see it too!
Girl -- you've come a long way, and I believe that you can continue on this path. The obstacles may be tough, but just as you have overcome them in the past, you can overcome them in the future as well.
Posted 21 December 2011 - 09:57 PM
then I got home told my family wat happent and they didn't give a **** so I said watevr and moved allong
then I was snacking on a apple--an apple!--and my dad told me I'm eating too much so I shud go on a diet it hurt so muc cuz I'm ALLREADY ON A DIET I cut my intake to 1700 cals a day and I've been doing that for like 1 month and now I eat the same ( there cals from salad fruit veggies and drinks mostly ) but then now that my dad said that I couldn't take it anymore so now I eat the same but I take diet pills I found in the medicine cabinet an also I found laxitives and stool softeners but I looked online and laxitives are dangerous so I took the other ones and ya I lost like only 1 pound but the thing is not only did my dad call me fat also MY GRANDMA AND MY CUZIN AND A CLASSMATE !!!!! I wana either loose a lot more rly fast or I wana die I'm so depressed about the way I look and it hurts me so much mentally and emotionally and
I feel like I don't "fit in" anymore cuz i'm fat and I can't b in dance and I am not good at running anymore cuz I'm fat I hate this ! K I feel bad babiling on about my problems and I feel like I'm a hopeless cause cuz I just have problems no solutions and I got back into the pro Ana sites and I figured out how to even have Internet in skewl from my iPod so I'm on them all day long I NEED HELP !!!! K sorry for this I feel rly bad but it's cuz. I ate a donut and latkes and it rly made me depressed and fat
Posted 22 December 2011 - 02:27 AM
Posted 22 December 2011 - 12:48 PM
Hun - You are beautiful because you are you! If you do need to lose a little weight, do it with the help of an expert, not by medication or with the "help" of pro-ana sites. That's why I recommended a nutritionist in the previous post.
The issue is not just your weight -- it is how you view yourself. This week has presented you with some very difficult challenges in that area, and I cry with you. What can you do about it? Daven, again and again, for help. Work with a therapist and a nutritionist - it can be really helpful! At the same time, I think you need to find a way to shine. Find an area in which you excel, and I am sure there are many. It should be something that you love to do, and invest yourself in it.
I wish I could take your hurt away - and this is from a stranger who loves you as a Hashem's child. You have many challenges, and they are real. However, I feel that with a lot of siyata dishmaya and the right support group, you can overcome this.
Posted 25 December 2011 - 11:49 PM
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Posted 23 January 2012 - 01:22 AM
k im seriously going to sleep but bh im great ( i think) so ill tty'all later
Posted 09 February 2012 - 12:18 AM
but heres the thing i rote like last week ....sooo I'm great having a busy life as usual .. Basically my mom an dad r divorsed (just in case u dont know )
so September she kicked me outta her house and in a way it was hard but also it was the best thing thaat could have happent to me cuz I just realize this past weekend me and my frien went to my mom for a Friday night dinner meal and her husban (she's been remarried for 10 years ) is a pervert he was winking at my friend the entire meal and hen they were talking about verry inapropriate things andwhile we were putting on our coats to leave they gave my FRIEND A PRESENT ????? My mom bought me a ring that was too big so I said no thanx it was a cheap ring so I figured fine it's ok but she started rubbing it in like "see ur friend apriciates rhings I give her more than u and that is y i'm givving it to her not u " And then when we were still standing there her husband said might I add VERRY CLEARLY he said "don't come in me and my wife are naked " that's what blew me off I said to myself I'm not comming back to her house
Then about 2 weeks ago she called me up to tell me there's a sale at a store so she offered this " i'll drive u to the store if u would like but don't expect me to spend a Peny on u " so that's just mean so I said no
Also every Thursday my mom goes to. A social worker cuz I told her some advice and I. Told her to get one .so evry thurs from 4-5 she's there in Flatbush ..near my skewl .. So at 5 I get dismissed so she calls the skewl so they tell me shes waiting for me ,,,, me being a nice person / not being rude usually gladly excepts the ride ... but this week she called me and said shes allready waiting outside so i told her to either drive away now or ill talk to her in a min when i get there ... she was still there .. it was raining....i had no more swipes left on my student metro card( i had to walk home in the rain ...it was cold outside also ) but i was stubborn and gave her the meanest thing possible .. i went to her car and yelled at her saing that "id really love a ride home in ur warm car but after ur husband being so inapropriate and u not realizing i cant be seen with u anymore .. and i have no intrest .... id rather walk home (talkesan hour) in the cold rainy dark then to be with u in ur car and i walked away .)
i feel bad a little bit but actually she deserves it ... i think .. she might have cried her way home but i dont care ..
oh and even woorse now i dont want to know she exists cuz i hate her and i hate my life .. so ive been totally stable with my ed ... sh .. all issues went away bh .... until last thursday ... the car issue was 2 weeks ago .. court was last week .... so basically my mom went to court again (custody )
and decided the last resort to try and get me to not be with my dad was say im crazy and that i need to be put into a mental institution .. so she went to court and said verry clearly ( and my dad never knew this before ) that MY DAUGHTER HAS ANOREXIA AND BULIMIA AND SHE IS DEPRESSED AND SUICIDAL AND I SHE HASENT BEEN TAKING HER PILLS so basically my dad came home totally didnt believe her cuz he thinks im perfect .. oy vey ... but he was joking all shobboss that oh you have an eating disorder .. but i dont even look close to it anymore .. then i went to a store in bp and was looking for a shobboss robe so the large was way to big but the med was a lil small so the lady said i shud get the med and loose some weight ... that wasnt wat i wanted to hear but whatever ... but ya now my law im required to find a psycyatrist or a psycologyst not sure which one yet ... but ill keep yall updated iyh
Posted 10 February 2012 - 12:19 PM