Whats wrong with me??
Posted 07 January 2012 - 11:29 AM
becouse god only gives you nisonas that you can handle
i wish i can say magic words that will make evrything beutifulll in your life but there arnt
i just want you to know that someone is hurting becouse of how much your hurting and may you see hashems hand in all this suffering
Posted 08 January 2012 - 12:41 AM
And in terms of marriage, I know a girl who's father abused her mother and her mother finally woudn't tolerate it (he slept on the couch for a bit I believe but he did get the message-good person but MISGUIDED). My friend wanted to get married non the less. My parents didn't always get along perfectly (family history bc of cercumstances) and I was worried 'well, how will I do?? where does this all leave me??' Basically, SINCE I know the pitfalls and the mistakes people can get into, I am more prepared in certain ways to handle things than someone who thinks that marriage is totally 'laddidah and bliss and amazing, and of course we won't disagree! He's my bashert' One needs to be realistic but BECAUSE you've seen what a not good situation is like, you wil have a much better handle on things. Sure, therapy might be very useful for you, simply to give you better bairing and help you realize how to find your way to a positive life, but you have the potential. I know what i"m going to say is nothing in relation to what you've been through but there is a point to what I will say. I was picked on for many years in elementary school/junior high. I was left out, hurt, felt like nothing, thought I wasn't normal etc. I even thought I was ugly (and I know I;m not a supermodel but i'm not ugly! Hashem gives each of us a neshamah and if we let it shine, no matter how 'ugly' we may be, we're NOT ugly). Over time, I got past it, little by little. The point is, because I went through that, I"m MUCH more aware of someone who may need that extra hug, that extra connection...etc. I'm not perfect but because of my experiences, I can help others. Would I have been the same without it? NO. And it wouldn't have been a good thing. Good is only relative to how Hashem, G-d, sees things. You never know what's really good-kid thinks bag of candy really good, but dentist knows a whole bag is bad for the teeth.
Rabbi Wallerstein speaks in one of his shiurim on TorahAnytime.com (Manchester, England Avinu Malkainu, probably from 2011) about a girl who didn't want to live/didn't think life was worth living. He asked her this: you're going down Ave J (busy street in Brooklyn) and you see a little 2 year old let go of her mother's hand and run into the street. There's a bus coming. Would you run to save the child? (she says yes bc she doesn't care about living). Okay, so you save that child and bring the child back to her mother. Not only did you save the child, you saved the mother, since how could she live knowing that the child was under her watch when this all happened?, and you saved the marriage, bc how could the husband live on with the woman who didn't properly care for his child? (and something that might not have been mentioned in the Torah lecture: besides that fact that the girl would've allowed this child to have children/grandchildren etc). You would have saved so many people, with that one action!-and the girl, around 15, 16, finally looked up at R' Wallerstein and acknowledged she can make a difference. YOU TOO can make a difference and you are!
1)Everyone of us who answers back fulfills the mitzvah of v'ahavta l'raacha kamocha-love your neighbor like yourself. We write back bc we care and maybe, just maybe, we can do something for you.
2)And we get the mitzvah of chessed, doing kindness.
3)And the mitzvah of bikor cholim in a sense, visiting the sick, because maybe we are aiding in helping you in some way, or showing that we are 'visiting' you, kinda like a phone call (don't know if actually counts according to Jewish law, but still kindness non the less
4)AND we are helping anyone else who needs these answers and gets them here.
YOU are a vesel for mitzvot, good deeds. The sheer fact that you are here in this world means that you still have to potential to DO so much! (As someone stated earlier, whomever that was, thank you:) Anyone here who asks for help, enables/allows someone else to do a mitzvah AND has the potential to allow someone else to get the answer they need. How many times have I read something on here that I found to be meaningful/helpful? How many times have I answered back? Someone once gave out a sheet with a picture of a child. The sheet said: 'I know I"m a somebody because G-d don't make no junk.' Simple, clear, and easily stated.
Hang in there everyone, we need our klal yisroel.
Posted 11 January 2012 - 12:11 PM
Posted 28 January 2012 - 11:21 PM
I feel really bad but I asked the person what the site is called, and they said that it stopped cuz there was no one to be on top of it. She said that she will find out if there are any other sites or people online to help.
gotemunah? - i would love to know the website, it would be so helpful. thanks.
I was reading your other posts - have a refuah shelaima biKarov!
Posted 02 March 2012 - 08:19 AM
I'll give you a few examples of things I wrote.
~Today I only got 3 black and blue marks
~Today I was able to stay in school for most of the day
~Today I saw the sunset and it was beautiful
~Today my leg got popped out at NIGHT so I didn't have to stay home so no one would ask questions.
~Today I found another clue to where my brother is buried so I'm one step closer to finding him and visiting him finally!!
~Today it didn't rain all day
~Today I had a really nice conversation with someone I look up to
~Today my principal didn't make any nasty comments to me
~Today my siblings liked what I cooked (every one of them!!!)
Those are a few examples...I challenge you to try it, it's made a HUGE difference in my life!!! Get a notebook and start jotting things down as you go about your day, you will be more aware of the good in your life. They can be small things, like seeing a blue bird, or something bigger, but it doesn't matter, because it's all GOOD!!
There is GOOD in your life, don't despair, just look for it! It's there!
Posted 02 March 2012 - 03:44 PM
I tried it a year ago, I think I need to do it again. It worked for a few months!
Posted 04 March 2012 - 11:24 AM
I miss you Yehuda. I will never forget you.
Posted 08 March 2012 - 06:52 PM