not praying 'cuz no point
Posted 26 December 2011 - 07:06 AM
I just don't have a connection to G-d.
I guess I just don't understand why I have so many tests... why I'm dealing with depression and all the fun stuff.
So I don't feel a point in praying- it's not going to do anything anyway.
Am I a shiksa?
I know many people are in my situation and they pray- but nothing changes so I don't think I should; and don't.
When I do, I feel like I am taking to a brick wall and have to finish fast.
Can anyone relate?
Posted 26 December 2011 - 09:17 PM
Posted 26 December 2011 - 09:40 PM
Posted 28 December 2011 - 03:56 AM
guess who lost out. ME,
hashem is the one who loves me most, he is my father and companion. and today i can recognize it.
but you are the only one who can decide that you wanna change the situation. and when you decide that, then people can give you suggestions on how to create that connection and secure it slowly but surely.