K, so i'm not doing anything terrible.
I just don't have a connection to G-d.
I guess I just don't understand why I have so many tests... why I'm dealing with depression and all the fun stuff.
So I don't feel a point in praying- it's not going to do anything anyway.
Am I a shiksa?
I know many people are in my situation and they pray- but nothing changes so I don't think I should; and don't.
When I do, I feel like I am taking to a brick wall and have to finish fast.
Can anyone relate?
not praying 'cuz no point
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trying4eva
, Dec 26 2011 07:06 AM
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shifpifer1
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Posted 26 December 2011 - 09:17 PM
Maybe you should try not davening in Hebrew for a day or just saying a simple supplication of your own. Just talk to Hashem about your problems, after all He is the one who gave them to you in the first place. It's good that you recognize that you have to daven, because actually a lot of people dont realize they should daven and they mope around waiting for a doctor to help them. No doubt you should seek outside help when needed, but it all comes from Hashem. He is the best cure/medicine. You can even talk to Hashem about how you want to improve your davening and feel different about tefila. Plead to your father in Heaven and tell Him All that is on your mind, just open up a little every day. Maybe even purchase a Sefer about tefila to inspire you a bit. You will reap the efforts you have sown over time and G-d willing will break down the brick wall between you and Him.
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Posted 26 December 2011 - 09:40 PM
Tell me about it I have the same issue. The thing is when I was in Israel I had an amazing connection and here I just have no patience to pray. I am now 21 and have been dealing with an medical issue (not dangerous ) since I am 8 and it has not gotten much better but I still pray and there is not really a chance it is gonna get better even though the doctors say maybe. Keep on praying even if u cant feel anything because slowly it will come back, let me know if you want me to post of a prayer in English that helped me get my connection back. Another suggestion is to write down ten things you are thankful for every night before you go to sleep.
Good luck
Good luck
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Posted 28 December 2011 - 03:56 AM
okay, it sounds like right now you are not in a position to hear any suggestions. your life is tough and is throwing stones at you and i feel for you. i just wanted to say that i can definetely relate. for years i did not pray, yup, thats right. even when it was part of the school schedule i would somehow find my way out. either i would come late, or go out for a long bathroom break, or just sit there with everyone and mumble nothings. so i can definetely relate. and no matter how much people would talk about the importance of teffila it would just not register.
but,
guess who lost out. ME,
hashem is the one who loves me most, he is my father and companion. and today i can recognize it.
but you are the only one who can decide that you wanna change the situation. and when you decide that, then people can give you suggestions on how to create that connection and secure it slowly but surely.
but,
guess who lost out. ME,
hashem is the one who loves me most, he is my father and companion. and today i can recognize it.
but you are the only one who can decide that you wanna change the situation. and when you decide that, then people can give you suggestions on how to create that connection and secure it slowly but surely.
