The Fear Of It All
Posted 27 September 2012 - 02:02 PM
But im freaking out because i know that if she does, imy"H get engaged soon...my mother will be putting me up to the plate next. And i dont really know if i want to be getting married. At least not for a while. I dont want to be with a guy. k, no that might have sounded wrong, i would want a guy but i dont want to be in a relationship with one. the idea of marriage freaks me out, of being in a relationship with someone where you have to commit yourself and him and your family is counting on you. i dont want to destroy the family i could have. i feel like the reason men freak me out, is because i was abused when i was a child, and the strange relationships ive had with people since then does no help to that. im writing this here because i have no where else to say it. but i cant answers or advice from elsewhere because no one i know knows about this....im not sure which steps to be taking next, yes, i know i might have some time because of my sister, but my mother might just want to start with me iif nothing happens soon, chas v'shalom....
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