At present, I'm struggling with some pretty major issues such as:
1- I think I'm clinically depressed.
I don't remember ever really feeling happy, but the possibility of depression hit me just in the middle of last year. I realized I hit most qualifications on the nail. Then I aced some depression tests I took online so now it's kinda official. I'm considered a funny, friendly, "chilled" person though. I laugh a lot and have a lot of friends....And I'm not worried I'll kill myself though I desparately want to die. a) I'm scared of hell and I would never want my fam and friends to go through that insane greif.
So it's not like I fear for my safety. I'm just going crazy from sadness. It's like being stuck in a sticky, black abyss and seeing sun rays through some cracks and being afraid you will never get to see the actual sun ever again.
2- I'm a compulsive liar, and a good one. This scares the living daylights outta me. I don't even wanna type about it. Suffice it to say, it's got my innerds clawing at my skin.
3- Physically, I don't feel too great. This has been going on for over a year. No one really knows about it. It could be cuz of # 1, so I'm not overly worried; it just makes daily life that much harder.
4- Family issues. These have existed from when I was born. I don't even have patience getting into them. It's not abuse. But it's pretty messed up.
That's really it. There is no way I'm talking to anyone about these. I'm functioning relatively well. I've got friends, good grades, and a pretty good rep. There are people who like and/or respect me. I am just very, very, very tired.